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27 January 2011 @ 12:41 am
I haven't signed into my LJ in almost 2 months. The layout and everything needs to seriously be revamped. I think I'll work on that over the weekend.

Oh, and hi! 
Sometimes you have to believe
25 August 2010 @ 05:04 pm
This is one of those rare times... when I haven't posted anything in a long, and yet here I am... posting absolutely nothing important. 

So, we'll just call this a minor life update post. Im doing this for my own sake, because I feel like I've been neglecting my LJ. And I have. But with good reason! 

Arrows? Hearts? Clovers! (Or clubs, if you want to get all technical and stuff.)

♣ After spending two and a half months in Tennessee (a state which I can positively say I never want to live in), I'm finally home - as of two and a half weeks ago, that is. This means that my wonderfully sweet amazing Granddaddy is healthy and happy again. It's kind of a miracle, I guess. We were all so very close to just losing him completely. He was so run down and ill looking that it really scared me. It's kind of amazing how well he's doing right now. He's almost back to normal, even - he just needs to get back on his feet and moving around. He even drove today! Its the first day he's been able to drive since he got sick. I'm so happy for him! He called us from his new cell phone to tell us! My mother and I decided he needed a cell phone as a precautionary, just in case something happened while he was on the road. He was very reluctant to touch it, and kept insisting that he'd never use it. But my Grandma say's he's overly protective and way too proud of the basic little flip phone. 

♣♣ I'm registered for classes! I've taken my major-of-choice into Information Technology. It means I'm a complete nerd. It also means I will one day rule the world from my soon-to-be computer skills. Be afraid. My classes look insanely fun, though! All except Spanish. I'm reluctant to go into Spanish, I had such a horrible time with that class in High School. Java Programming, Web Design, and Computer Systems Architecture are the ones that are exciting, no matter how much they may intimidate me. 

Originally, I was going for Atmospheric Science with an emphasis in the IT field - meaning I'd be designing graphics, modules, forecasts, weather maps, all that fun pretty stuff you guys see on The Weather Channel. In order to do this, though, I have to go to a really expensive really elite university - or go to a different out-of-state school. Both of which are far too expensive right now. So, for now, I'm just going into IT. Later, much later, if I'm still not happy.... I'll think about going back for AS degree. 

♣♣♣ I lost my iPod Nano (Anya. I name my electronics. Shutup.) a few weeks ago. She's brand new, I bought her sometime in July after giving up my iPhone for a Blackberry. I was kind of devastated. I figured she fell out of my car, or I lost her when we were unpacking, but she was gone. So, I gave up looking for her. Last night, I got kind of cold and put on this overly large jacket that I've only wore one other time in my entire life - about 3 weeks ago. In the pocket of this stupid jacket, I FOUND MY IPOD. I was so ecstatic and happy last night. She is forever going into a little tiny protective bubble and I will never ever lose her ever again. 

♣♣♣♣ I want to be a blogger. I know, its a long-shot stupid goal. But I've been reading all these humorous fun blogs lately (like this one). And I want to do that. So, maybe in the next few months, I'll get something organized and start it. 



Last night, I was talking to my friend Mercedes . She was relentlessly fangirling to me about David Tennant from Dr. Who. Except she completely denied the fact that she was a huge fan of him. So I drew this for her on Paint - (Its crappy and stuff. Its my first drawing on paint ever. But her, and a couple other people, seemed to get a kick out of it.) 


(I want a new background. Darker colors. With Richard from LOST.) 
Sometimes you have to believe
01 August 2010 @ 02:18 pm
I know all of one or two of you care. BUT OH MY GOD I'M DONE. 

I have no idea what to think. Or do. I don't even know who my OTP is anymore, because everyone I ever considered had the most perfect reunion ever. I'm still digesting it... or trying to stay alive. Or something. So, uh.. maybe in a few days, when my brain comes back, I'll post some totally awesome long post.

The only thing I have to say right now is: Everyone who ever told me the ending ruined everything, and that it was the most idiotic thing ever? WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE? IT WAS GORGEOUS 

Thats all. 
Sometimes you have to believe
Its been awhile since I've updated LJ. Almost a month, actually - which is kind of scary. My life has been on hold for an entire month, and still going that way. 

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(I LJ-Cut most of that, to save you guys from having to read it. I didn't mean for it to turn out so lengthy. Like I said, I'm a tad bit emotional today.) 

In short? I'm still here! I just haven't been able to update. I don't even know what to update with, to be honest. I should start getting back on track with writing - that helped out immensely when we were living out of the hotel. I'm just kind of in my own mood today. I can't decide if I don't feel good, or if I'm being stupid emotional. Maybe a mix of both. 

However, I'm now on season three of LOST! :D  I've joined a Team VA (Glee) OC RPG on LJ, which I'm really excited about. I believe it starts today, actually. And I've completely finished (and fallen in love) with season one of Community. I still check LJ as regular as I can, because its kind of turned into my own little escape. I'm glad I signed up when I did. 

Thank god its supposed to rain today, though. Thunder Storms are my love. Where it dampers some peoples moods? It brightens mine. And it hasn't rained here the entire month or so that I've been here. RAIN HARD TODAY, PLEASE? 
Current Mood: exhaustedexhausted
Sometimes you have to believe
20 June 2010 @ 10:00 pm
It took me the longest time ever to make this right. I'm far too picky on colors and fonts and such. 


That is all. 
Current Mood: contentcontent
Sometimes you have to believe
20 June 2010 @ 11:49 am
Hi Guys. 

I wanted to post something.. anything.. today. Not sure why, I just... wanted to.  Its a "Hey, you've had no sleep. Heres an impulse" kind of thing. Or maybe its just because I wont be able to be on LJ for a few days straight. 

Anyways, I've been trying to get the episodes of The Invisibles up on my computer to upload, but I'm having a hell of a hard time with the converter. I've given up on that for now. 

However, I have uploaded something ASH-tastic (New word?) - mainly for a friend who still has not heard this CD. But I decided to share it with everyone else too :D 

A few months ago, I started looking everywhere possible for a copy of this CD. It took me forever and a day to finally find one. Now that I actually own the CD, I thought I'd make it a bit easier on anyone else who hasn't heard it yet. 

My personal favorite is Babies [The In Between], Qu'est-ce J'ai fait and All the fun Of The Fair tie in for second. The CD itself takes some getting used to, it totally surprised me at first. It just didn't seem like Tony.  But, its a pretty relaxing and chilled out CD all together. Plus, its Anthony Stewart Head .... singing. Can't get much better than that, can we?

 Music For Elevators - Anthony Stewart Head & George Sarah 

01. "What Can You Tell Me"
02. "Babies [The In Between]" (Music by Anthony Head)
03. "Owning My Mistakes"
04. "[Segue]"
05. "We Can Work It Out" (Cover of a song by The Beatles)
06. "Qu’est-ce que j’ai fait" (Music by George Sarah)
07. "All the Fun of the Fair"
08. "This Town in the Rain"
09. "Talk to You"
10. "Mum's Song" (Written by Helen Shingler)
11. "Last Time" (Music and lyrics by Joss Whedon)
12. "One Man's Rain"
13. "[Segue]"
14. "Change"
15. "Staring at the Sun" (Hidden track)
16. "End Game" (Hidden track; Music by George Sarah)

Download FULL ALBUM  (Zipped folder)

(Links redirect you to MU) 

I've literally been up all night with no sleep. Don't ask me why I do this to myself, because I don't know. At some point after 5 AM I got all caught up in this episode of LOST and just couldn't turn it off. Most dramatic by far for me and... kind of speechless about it. And now suddenly I notice its noon. Wow. Time kind of flew past me this morning.

I'm exhausted. Gonna go try and catch a few hours now though!!!

Enjoy ♥

PS- This post may only be public for about a week, as the original upload was only intended for one person.
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Sometimes you have to believe
14 June 2010 @ 01:15 pm
I'm home now. Which is fantastic. I missed my home, and my room, and just... my privacy. Sharing a hotel room with your parents is doable for maybe one night. A week and a half? No. Too much. Personal space INVADED. Only downfall to being home is, I'm not sure how long it will last. Were going back to Nashville for sure, but whether thats going to be tomorrow or next week is beyond me. I'm just here for the ride. I don't make these decisions. But ugh, the chances of yet another 12 hour drive there to spend days in a hospital room is just... turn off. Do not want.

I quit my job. I really didn't want FIRED FROM WAL-MART stapled across my name anywhere. It almost sounds like an insult or something. So instead of giving them the chance to fire me, which they undoubtedly would have, I called and resigned.  Yay, I'm unemployed again. This time probably until August, that way I can get school situated and find a job that will work with my schedule. Working at department stores are a big NO. Check. Noted. 

I found this TV show called Spooks. In an episode of this, both Hugh Laurie and Anthony Stewart Head star. WHAT? Why didn't the world explode when this happened? Why didn't I know this happened? I mean.. I ... God. I have the episode bookmarked. I haven't watched it yet, but expect fangirl drabble when I do. Probably on twitter. IM SO EXCITED OMG HUGH LAURIE AND ASH. SDLFKJASF

I also need to get back into LOST. But I'm kind of worried now, with me being so... job-less, I'm not sure that I'll be able to afford the later seasons. Which is amazingly depressing. Hopefully I can find them online to buy for cheaper, maybe Amazon. If not, maybe I can find them online to watch.  

I've also decided that I may upload The Invisibles and Manchild to some... site. Gotta figure out which site first. Youtube doesn't work with uploading TV shows very well. But then, wonderful ASH fans who haven't seen those two series can snag and fangirl over them. Because they're fangirl worthy. James (From Manchild) Is definitely my favorite ASH Character. Ever. (Next to Giles. But he's just a given.) So, if you're interested? Be on the look out for those this month, maybe :D 

AND THEN I GOT HOME TO REALIZE THAT MICHAEL BUBLE IS FUCKING COMING HERE. MICHAEL BUBLE, GUYS. And I can't see him because tickets are sold out and GOD. I wish I knew this sooner. He's ... I fangirl over him. He's one of my favorite singers and he's going to be less than half an hour away from me and... LKFJA;SLDF DAMN IT. 

I slept in today. My life is great. I love being home. Now I'm off to go pick up my very last Wal-Mart check. And then I'm coming back home and doing absolutely nothing but sitting in my room all day. My roooooom. I have privacy and alone time now. I missed it, okay? Shutup. 
Current Mood: awakeawake
Sometimes you have to believe
Title: Caught in a Bad Romance 
Fandom: Glee
Pairing: Sue/Will
Rating: PG-13 
Word count: 605
Disclaimer: Sadly, I dont own Glee or any of its characters. So this is just entertainment and stuff. 
Summary:  "Sue?" He breathes out, spinning her back around to face him. "Stop talking."
This doesn't really spoil anything at all. 
This takes place during the episode Funk. You'll notice the first half of the story is exactly what you saw in the scene merely typed out. The second half is my little AU rendition of what would have been totally sexy if it did happen. I know probably 99.9% of the fandom absolutely despises Will/Sue, but they're kind of my crack!ship. And you'd agree that they're totally the definition of Bad Romance. 

Made entirely as a contest entry for [info]gleefic_contest

X-posted to
[info]ontd_glee & gleefics 


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Current Mood: determineddetermined
Sometimes you have to believe
12 June 2010 @ 06:52 pm
If you could choose to control your dreams, would you? If so, what would you dream about?

I usually don't answer these, because the questions never spark my interest. So, 99.9% of the time they sit on my LJ completely ignored. This one was practically made for me, though. See, maybe you can't tell by my screenname, but dreams and sleep studies are a huge interest of mine. I'd major in oneiology (The study of dreams) if it were considered and actually science. But since dreams are considered as anything from and OBE to a whole separate dimension, its considered something more along the lines of what you believe, and thus its not a true science.

One day it will be. 

Now. The question if you could choose to control your dreams is kind of redundant. Its possible for anyone can choose to control their dreams. Its all about discipline and patience. The process is called "Lucid Dreaming", and trust me... its probably the hardest thing you'll ever do and takes months of practice. 

Yep. Practice dreaming. I know, that makes little to no sense. . . especially if your'e not one to be interested in such studies. But its really pretty cool. A lucid dream is pretty much a dream in which the person is aware that they are dreaming. If you can reach the mental capacity to actually know that you are dreaming, then its possible to control what you're dreaming about. 

You can google "How To Lucid Dream" and come up with probably 500 different lists of steps. There are hundreds of published books about it. Use those as simple guidelines, but develop your own way to do it. I'd suggest keeping a dream journal (not only for the lucid dreaming purposes, but also because its just pretty freaking cool to go back and read through ti months later. 90% of the dreams I write down, I don't even remember having.) Write down every single detail you can remember. The more you do this, the more you're telling your subconscious that you want to remember your dreams. Within a months time, you'll notice that you remember your dreams far more often and more vivid than ever. 

Everyone has dreams. Even the people who say "Oh, I dont ever remember a dream. I must not dream." They do. They just need to train their mind to let them remember. The dream journal will start out slowly, maybe even 1-2 entries a week. But in no time you'll be able to put 1-2 down a night. 

Even if you're not interested in ever controlling your dreams, this is still a pretty cool process. Especially if you're like me, and you're a writer. So many amazing ideas come from ones subconscious that and eventually be put in words and make for one awesome story. Dreaming is seriously one of my favorite tools in writing. 

Annnd I've still avoided answering the question. I've been practicing this lucid dreaming thing for almost a year now. (Granted, I came off of that process about 4 months ago and have yet to go back on. But I intend to! I just need to get back in the habit of filling out my dream journal) So, I can't exactly answer that question yet. I dont know what'll be my first thing to do once I (if I) ever reach that stage. 

With that, my amazingly long answer to this is done. And I'm off. Sorry if I kind of overloaded this with information. I told you I was insanely interested in dream/sleep studies. 
Sometimes you have to believe
12 June 2010 @ 01:52 am
Will - [5]
Emma - [1]
Rachel - [4]
Quinn - [6]
Sue - [2]
Puck - [2]
Brittany - [1]
Will/Emma - [3]
Will/Sue - [8]
Rachel/Finn - [4]
Other/Misc. - [4]

Forty isn't very many, but its all I managed to put together so far. My usual icon-grid-generator crapped out on me for some reason. I had to settle for posting these a different way. Granted, its not as organized without the numbers. But hopefully you all can count :D 


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